Making Decisions

I am trying to make a big decision and I am afraid to choose the wrong choice.

It involves whether or not we should add onto our house.

I want to add onto our home for a list of reasons that would benefit our family, but I am worried that in the long run we won’t recoup the costs.

I think it might be frivolous to spend the money.

If in the future we regain all of the cost, I would do the addition in a heartbeat…. but I don’t know what the future holds.

What if we lose money in the long run?

So the fear of the unknown is keeping me stuck.

I know I could just be happy with my house the way it is now and that adding on doesn’t “make” me happy, because I know that circumstances do not cause my feelings, so why should I even consider doing it?

I’ve thought about this a lot, and I’ve decided the answer is:

Because I want to.

That is reason enough.

I want to do what I want to in life, not what I “have” to or “should” do.

I have come to realize that I don’t have to do anything. Truly, doing nothing is actually an option. Why not just sit on the couch watching Netflix all day?

If things don't create my happiness, then doing things doesn't make me happy.

If nothing will make me happy, why do any of it?

I've thought about this a lot lately and decided that I don’t accomplish things to feel good. I feel good and love my life so I do good.

So what do I want to do?

I want to raise 6 kids.

I want to homeschool them.

I want to eat healthy.

I want to exercise.

I want to learn.

I want to become a life coach.

I want to have an amazing marriage.

I want to serve in my church and community.

So I do all of them.