I am afraid... afraid I'm not enough. Afraid of rejection. Afraid of failure.
What would people think if they really knew what I was like?
Of course they would think that I am not qualified. Only people who have it all together are worthy. I'm afraid that I am failing.
I want to stop being afraid of failure, but how?
No really, how? How do I stop debating wether I'm a success or failure constantly?
Why do I think I'm failing in the first place?
Who decides what success is anyways?
Real success cannot look like the unattainably perfect pictures I find on instagram.
There is a lot more mess and a lot more chaos in reality.
My life revolves around learning, trying my best, making mistakes, apologizing, and trying again, over and over and over again.
Maybe that is success?
Maybe success is just getting back up when I fail and being willing to try again?
I want to choose to believe that I am succeeding. I want to stop being afraid to share.
So here I am, being real. I'm pretty imperfect. I still have a lot to learn.
I’m a work in progress.
Maybe you also feel like you’ve failed today? It's time to tell the debate teams in our brains to settle down and take a seat. There is no debate. You don't need to convince yourself that you are not failing. Stop searching for proof that you are enough. Start seeing the evidence that you are succeeding at this thing called life.
You are amazing just the way you are.
Stop comparing. Stop worrying. Stop hiding.
The real you is a complete and total success. Mess, imperfections, repeats, and all.
No one else’s perception of how your life should be, is reality.
Your life IS a beautiful reality. Just as it is right now.
Today, just enjoy the perfect chaos of life. That really is success.